One day (yes, yes all stories start with ‘once upon a time’ …
J) when sipping early
morning energy booster ‘Indian Chai’, looking at a pine tree with blinds on the
windows playing pee-a-boo in intervals, I got this thought – Blinds !!!
As most of us have eyes (I believe) whose primary purpose is
to help us ‘see’. But do we really see what we are ought to see? Or are eyes
just a medium telling us to ‘see’. I haven’t yet quite figured this out. When
my eyes kept gazing at the pine tree with birds chirping, welcoming a new day,
my thoughts were still in the zone of nostalgia of something already gone. Then
I thought, even though eyes try to show us what present moment is but we are
mostly controlled by what we think and not what we see.
Thoughts are like mysterious lover. Like a mermaid, so
beautifully disguised, like a flush of blood when you see a beloved, like
pounding of heart when you hear your name whispered by sweet lips of a lover, like
anonymity behind a beautiful smile of a stranger – very enchanting so festooned
with blinds called ‘Thoughts’. They dictate ‘eyes’ like waves in the sea, every
time different one takes birth, a new vigor, a new intensity but yet never known
why they emerge so in brains with such high frequency that humans are still
studying 2 hemispheres that control our so called ‘drama of self-preservation -
EXISTENCE’.
We blind ourselves in one lifetime in so many ways – During childhood
– by ‘innocence’, followed by – learning
of revolutionary actions of changing the world – by being a ‘rebel’, then by
unlearning the actions of rebel cult – by acceptance to change ‘thyself’ then
slowly merging into depth of collective connectedness to remain accepted, loved
and cared at the end.
Thoughts when in present moment act like Adrenaline reservoir
to keep things in ‘Action, Action’ just like the way a SS commands to a so
called person who is only a ‘number’ now in a concentration camp. Soon
bandwagon of life moves on to get the blinds of present dropped off in station
called ‘past’ and starts searching blinds for future.
How impressed we become and so thrilled we’ll be to enjoy/suffer
what our minds ask us to enjoy/suffer when at the root of all we know, we are
only seeing based on the blinds we have on. Each one of us have different
garlanded blinds of seeing the same world we live in due to geographical
difference, religious conditioning, personal preference etc., (Yes, please add
all the traits that one can brand as ‘that’s so not my type’. And my type is –
blah blah …. Basically everyone can compartmentalized in one form or the other
but its human nature to fight for ‘uniqueness’ – sign of one more blinds)
How different is this living of humans in so called liberated
atmosphere than been imprisoned behind bars like a prisoner? We already bars to
imprison ourselves – thoughts of our own, which always have some jail warden
(rules of society) to monitor us for not fleeing away. Away to a realm of
freedom – realm called ‘Oneness with self’ without bars of thoughts caging us.
We are all skeletons disguised with skin and rags with face
as masks in varied blinds of thoughts. Garlanded blinds of living, direct us to
falling into bucket of ‘I’, to bucket of ‘We’ to bucket of ‘Nothing’ at the
end. Individuality to collective connectedness to ‘Nothing’.
‘Nothing’ is the zone we all belong one day. Of pure bliss,
of pure no thoughts, of pure pause that one enjoys between 2 thoughts. When all
the framed blinds of thoughts are taken away by non-existence of a Skelton and
skin, when no eyes exist to be ruled by ‘blinds of thoughts’ that’s when we
will see, we will see ‘light’ – light of nothingness. Light of liberation from
garlanded cage of thoughts that separates us from so called ‘Life’ – to zone of ‘vision’ at the end. To see
vividly why we had ‘eyes’ to start with imprisonment in cage of ‘life’ again.
- Shilpa
